Fighting the Wealth of Opportunities

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Fighting the Wealth of Opportunities

I sit in my new office listening to music with my candle lit I have to admit this writing process seems unfamiliar. Maybe because it has been months since I have written to you using this platform, maybe because my words are now more clear to me and that means more transparency and openness.  Whichever it is, know that writing this post today is truly inspired by my transformation and a newly found surrender to God.

Do you eagerly wait for Sunday mornings to hear what your pastor is going speak on?  I have to tell you I didn’t always.  For years I didn’t even understand what was being spoken from the pulpit let alone ANTICIPATE IT.  Over the past few months my mind has expanded in understanding, and when that happened, my heart thirsted for more sermons, more bible study, more of THE WORD of truth. I tell you all of this to say that I can’t remember which Sunday our pastor said these words, but the impact it had on me was profound and I felt the need to share my story.

Our country and society have an abundance of opportunities, or nation’s cup run over with them. I know you are probably thinking, “Really?” Have you seen the unemployment rate or the homeless epidemic? Yes, I have, but do they have the opportunities to search for help, to find resources that can supplement them while they get on their feet, and do they have the ultimate opportunity to choose our Savior and turn their struggle into an amazing testimony for the Lord? Yes, my friends, our nation does have that opportunity, unlike so many others where death would be the consequence for that choice.

But that is not what I want to focus is on today. Today I wanted to share with you how the wealth of opportunities led me astray in my walk with the Lord and my family.

If you are not guarding your thoughts and actions at all times, the littlest thing can grow and separate you from amazing grace.  I humbly boast ( yeah I said it) that I am a loyal creature. I would never entertain the idea of going outside my marriage to be unfaithful.  I give my all to my employers. My children know that if they need me I will be there. I will take on the task no one wants to pick up from the PTA, the soccer club, the church, even the neighbor down the street who I never met!  I am a helper and servant it is one of my gifting’s.

Fighting the Wealth of Opportunities

While there is something to be said for a person like this there is a fine line.  I crossed it.  It didn’t happen at once as most sin, it gradually snuck into my life with the word “opportunities to:” help, network, give back… enter your own name. Then once the enemy saw that I was not able to turn down said opportunities, he attacked.  He gave me the feeling of pride for being able to help so many people. That pride filled a hole that was missing from life. (I may talk about that at a later date, just know it was a big hole that I desperately wanted to be filled). Then he literally HURLED opportunities at me…. I am not kidding! In one week I had 3 people contact me for jobs that would have been amazing. Sometimes opportunities would look like me having to be in two places at once and struggling to make a choice from which to choose.  Every single time it was me choosing to do something else other than spending time with my family. I struggled for a while being apart from them. Then I rationalized it saying, “I will be going back to work soon and I have to get used to that,” so I would say yes. I quickly lost sight of the opportunity at hand and just became busy.  I became too busy to pray, too busy to read the word, WAY too busy to do anything productive around the house. 

The wealth of opportunities turned to business which took me away from THE TRUTH.

My marriage struggled, my schooling was basically put on hold and I failed tests because I didn’t think that opportunity was big enough and my boys suffered from me not being around. My friends probably liked me because I choose them over my real priorities. Oh, hindsight is 20/20 for a reason!

In January of 2017, I re-read The Best Yes by Lysa Turkeurst. I wish I could say it had a huge impact on my desire to stop all of these opportunities the enemy was handing me. But God did use this book to point me to him.  He reminded me that I was called to help others seek Him and that with all of my business I would never be able to say yes to that commitment and responsibility. 

Slowly, very slowly, I started praying and taking a hard look at my “to-do-list”.   God carefully removed the filter I was using because, at that point, the damage I had done to my family could have left damaging scars on me.  For that, I am thankful.  As I began seeing that I was suckered by lies and pride, the shame and guilt came on. My mind started to open to the truth that I was not as loyal as I had boasted to my family and I surely was not as “holy” as I thought I was.

My “Apple” was spurred on by social media, jealousy, and coveting what other people had or dare I say portray to have on the superficial lenses of Instagram and Facebook.  

Choosing the right opportunities should line up with God’s will for you and your family. It is an investment in the future, not a momentary pacifier.  God is a God of order and thrives on routine and structure. When we are busy and in chaos, because we have so many “great opportunities” please do yourself the sweet favor and ask "is this from God or is it from a prideful enemy looking to attack".

There is nothing worth doing without God.

Protect your family today and look at your priorities make sure they line up with your values. Make sure they are not interfering with your relationship with your husband, your children, and your GOD.

Proverbs 16:18

Pride goes before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall. Proverbs 16:18 ESV

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